Who the hell knows where this came from

Searching in the dark for the light
looking further with every step.
running toward the light
only to watch it grow further into the dark,
once gemming
now a distant speck
like a star in the sky burning out,
bright as the sun.
a heart full of hope and a mind still like the cold night.
waves of hope and light fill the future,
now looking at the blood spilling from the body
no longer with a soul,
the hate burning out of control.
love fills the soul of the empty beast now transformed
running further into the light,
now beautiful in the eyes of the gods below.
the deeds created by the one who loves so deep.
twisted words,
lies and pain spinning out of control in the waters,
deep dark below.
in this rain filling the lungs of this beast.
full of love hope drifting further away like the image of the light deep into the water.
what will become of the beast
when will it die
when will it drift away?
will the love and hope ever return
will the lungs empty making room for the light the air to breathe?
drowning in the fluids of the thoughts
running through the vain in the arm of this water.
the life filling the black waters
the lungs filling the thoughts fading like the light the sounds grow stronger.
this fluid leaking from the thoughts,
one love
one soul
one cold beast full of love hope and fear.
the life blood leaking from the thoughts
this heart cold like the deep still waters .